Just Writing

The need to write is making my fingers twitch.  Putting my thoughts into words seems to be a dominating drive most every moment of my past few days.  It's almost as if something is just over the horizon; something very big is just about to happen and I have to be sure I say all I have to while I'm still able.  Also, the fear of forgetting is a feeling I can't seem to shake.

I find myself grasping on to images, words, and ideas.  The smallest movement of the tiniest object of which I would have easily overlooked just a few weeks ago now produce the deepest emotions within me.  Not long ago I would have atributed such reactions as a result of skipping lunch or caffeine withdrawl.  It has become clear that much more than I can explain or perhaps even understand is happening in my life.  Lack of sleep can't possibly lead to such revelations as I have been having recently. 

My God is great and whatever He has planned for me I pray he prepares me for it.  May He grant me the wisdom to accept His Will with open arms.  I'll keep my readers, (all two of you), in the loop as the events of my life; no doubt it will be worth writing about.

Blessings,
Michael

Too Beautiful for the words I can say

There are times when my blessings are almost too much for me to handle; when just looking at such God given gifts humbles me tremendously.  Looking upon my wife is usually such a moment.

It's when she is not trying to be pretty, when beauty is the last thing on her mind, that I see just how gorgeous she truly is.  At times like that I feel like at any moment she is going to figure out just how unworthy I am of all God made her to be.  At any moment she is going realize I really have grabbed hold of more than I know what to do with in marrying her. 

However, I am very well aware of what I have; what God has actually blessed me with in this sacrament of marriage.  My marriage is my passage into heaven.  That's right, I truly believe my best chances of seeing God face to face is by living out my married life as He intended.  By offering my wife 100% of me and my efforts always, (never any of this 50/50 nonsense), no matter if at times I may feel she is not offering 100% of herself to me, I am living out a life-giving marriage.

My Love of God leads to my Love of my wife.  That to me is much more appealing than the alternative which is a Godless nothingness.  God is Love and Love brings forth Life.  This truly is more than my words can describe.

Blessings,

Michael